we did it
that day was a lot of fun.

it feels soo good to have gone through the gauntlet. people underestimate the program. to come from a place of uncertainty and doubt not knowing if you could stay on this crazy ride, it was very fulfilling to graduate with my friends who have been through the same trenches. my next goal is to get through these next 16 weeks of rotations. this first week was pretty crazy, but i think i lost 5 lbs running around the site, so bring it on.  i can handle it.

leah cracks me up so. she made the week with my preceptor more bearable by making me laugh cuz she went through the wringer with him.

i honestly feel that the possibilities are limitless now. i realize this portion of my life is only a stepping stone to more of the wonderful...and its a really good feeling. my initial feeling is that i do forsee more escuela in the future as i want to climb the ladder and possibly go into administration, but i am also seriously considering the traveling positions. i really want to see the world. the thought of that is making me so excited.

i did get to spend time with an old friend who is a walking inspiration herself. she has come so far with so many obstacles and  but yet has kept a grateful and humble sense of self even through all her great accomplishments and successes. i am very touched by knowing her and am amazed at her determination, strength and perserverance. very proud of her. she took me out to dinner in celebration of the graduation (which was sweet of her) went to kaneyama, i had not been there literally in a couple of years and it felt so strange, considering i that was one of my second homes. the sushi is still great.

i am also in a place now where i can let things go... things i kept for sentimental purposes. all that matters is what i keep in the mind and in the heart.

this was the first weekend in a long while i didn't have to worry about anything (at least for the moment). i almost did not know what to do with myself. now that i only have 2/3rds to go, i am sitting down and reassessing goals  - its good to feel you have "TIME" now...to actually just sit. think. be. has been so robotic in the last 18 months that its such a nice feeling to stop and smell the roses.

i feel now, the utmost priority for me besides my next 16 weeks of affils. is focusing on taking care of me. now i am in a really good place now to focus in on me. all me me me! selfish me!

and *i would like to paint today*.